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Steven
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I'm a guy from Kingston-Upon-Hull in England (United Kingdom :flaguk:).
I'm Asexual (skepticsplay.blogspot.co.uk/p/… ), a redhead and have been diagnosed by doctors as having Asperger Syndrome (a milder form of Autism).
However, according to a spiritual advisor I am infact an Indigo Child/Adult undergoing transition into a Crystal Child/Adult. If you don't know what this means, don't worry about it. However, if you are interested and want to learn more check out this link here. (www.starchildglobal.com/)

I am quite different from 'normal' people and have often been described as strange, but that doesn't bother me. I do like making friends with people, but I tend to get along better with girls. I'm not really sure why.
When I was in school, I used to get bullied every single day just for the fact I was a redhead and the way I acted due to my autism. It was hell on earth for me and for many nights, I couldn't sleep due to recurring nightmares (seeing the bullies as monsters in my dreams).
Eventually, I began imagining myself transforming into a dragon to fight back against them and destroy them for good. It gave me a great feeling inside.
However, after reading the book "Through the eyes of Aliens" by Jasmine Lee O'Neil, I realize my victory over them has already been achieved. A bully's main purpose in what they do is to make you feel bad about yourself and try to get you to change who you are.
I managed to go through all 6 years without changing who I was, and therefore I have triumphed over them for good. The dragon I dreamt up is still in my mind now (and its the same one I use for roleplaying - fav.me/d3hd8zz)

I am quite Empathic. I can feel other people's emotions and while at times it's nice to have, other times it is a burden. Whenever I see a friend or loved one upset or in pain, I start feeling pain in my Heart Chakra (middle of my ribs), which isn't a pleasant feeling. I will try to help any of my friends who need it so, and try to quicken the healing process they desperately need.

I believe that, as human beings, we all have the right to choose what we want to believe, not to have others choose for us. If you don't like what I like/believe, then fair enough. I respect your opinion but don't have a go (or swear) at me because of what I've chosen to like/believe, Instead just understand that I like something different, respect that I like it and just don't talk about it with me. If more people did this, there would be fewer wars.

Don't feel put down by people because of your beliefs, your appearance, your interests, your skin/hair colour, your age, your sexual orientation or what people think of you.
Never be ashamed of who you are...because you're awesome just the way you are!
You're not stupid, a freak, an idiot, a weirdo or a retard.
You're not 'nothing', a mistake, a waste of life or a disgrace to humanity.
You are one of a kind...and there will never be another like you!
You are unique...and being unique is cool!
Remember. Individuality is not a crime. No matter what makes us different, we are special in our own ways.
We are all human.
We are all a family.
We are all loved beyond what you can possibly imagine!

On a final note about myself, I can be quite vocal with my comments, so if I'm coming off as being annoying or 'over the top', then I apologize.
It's just my nature and I never intend to be a pain in the backside - it just kind of happens. I don't really have friends in real life due to my 'Autistic tendencies', so I try to be kind and loyal to the friends I can make here on the internet. I hope you understand.
If I comment and fave a lot of pictures by the same deviant all at once, I do become a bit paranoid as I feel I'm just annoying them. :(

A word of Warning: Any trolling or hating of me or my friends will result in immediate blocking from my page.

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In every face, there is beauty.
In every heart, there is love.
In every mind, there is wisdom.
In every person, there is a soul,
there is life, there is worth,
and there is the ability,
to see all these things,
not only in one’s self,
but in all others, too.
~Doe Zantamata

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Words can charm & words can wound. So choose your words with care.
Words can bring a blessing or hurt beyond repair…
Words can make us enemies & words can make us friends.
Words can make a quarrel & one word can make amends.

Words of hate are like stones flung out in anger or spite.
Words of truth are stars that give a sure & steadfast light.
Words of peace are isles of quietness in life’s troubled sea.
Words of love are like pearls strung of the threads of memory.

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Always
Unique
Totally
Intelligent
Sometimes
Mysterious

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True friends will read and repost this. Fake friends will just ignore it. If you are a real friends, one who cares for their friends, copy and paste this.
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ღ ♥ ☼ One Love ☼ ♥ ღ


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Join the aspie force, BE PROUD with us! <3


"Anyone willing to give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both."
- Benjamin Franklin


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FREE DRAGONS!
PUT THIS ON YOUR PAGE IF YOU ARE OR LOVE DRAGONS!
And help me to support!

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Current Residence: East Yorkshire
Favourite genre of music: I have a very varied taste in music
Favourite photographer: The great photographers on Deviantart!
Favourite style of art: Any that I decide I like
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: I don't use an MP3 Player
Favourite cartoon character: Changes all the time.
Personal Quote: The power of the voice is greater than the power of a gun.
Interests
(Not by me)


Man Thinking

“We learn more by looking for the answer to a question and not finding it than we do from learning the answer itself.” ~Lloyd Alexander

There was a time when I looked at the world without hope. My future felt dark because I didn’t know what I wanted to do.

I felt like I was a random player in a chaotic game. I didn’t like it, and I didn’t like life.

Luckily, I stumbled onto resources, ideas, and practices that helped me reconnect to my wisdom, my heart, and my interests.

I applied what I learned, and clarity emerged.

I’ll share what happened and how I gained clarity, but in order to do that, let’s start at the beginning.



The Problem

The problem wasn’t that I didnt know what I wanted to do. It was thinking that I should know what I want.

When I think I should know, I put pressure on myself. I feel stressed out, and I feel like I’m not good enough because I haven’t got life figured out.

When I accept the present moment as it is, it frees up a tremendous amount of energy. When I stop resisting, I can start living.

When I look back at the darkest moments in my life, not only do I see their purpose, but I also see that, deep down, I always knew what step to take next.

But at the time I couldn’t see this because my vision was clouded by my fears.



The Solution

The solution was to see through what held me back from connecting to my heart, and to my desires.

I did this by becoming mindful of how I was letting my fears dictate my life. I began to deliberately challenge my fears by taking action.

I took tiny steps forward. I listened to my heart as best as I could.

Instead of shrinking away from my fears, I wondered, “What would happen if I took a step forward anyway?”

By doing this, I discovered that most of my fears were false. They weren’t real. They didn’t come to pass, even though it felt like they would.

I realized that acting on what I was interested in right now was enough to start the ball rolling. With time, I could sense what was right for me.

Today, I feel like I have cat whiskers on my body, and I navigate through feeling.

Our desires can never be put out. They can be dampened and dismissed, but never extinguished.



3 Steps to Uncovering What You Want

So the question then becomes: How do we reconnect to our desires?

Well, I’m not going to tell you what to do, because there’s no real formula. And I’m not the expert on you. You are.

So what I’m going to do is share a few examples from my life. That way, you can pick what resonates with you and apply it to your life.

Don’t take what I say for granted. Instead, test it out.


1. Become quiet.

Whenever I feel confused and don’t know what to do, I take it as a sign to calm down. During those times, I notice that my mind is speeding along, trying to figure everything out.

I often lie down on my bed and just breathe. Sometimes I take a walk, and sometimes I watch a movie.

I don’t have a set routine. I listen to my heart. I notice what I feel pulled to do. I trust my body and my inner wisdom to know what is right for me at that moment.

But there are times when I don’t know what’s right. I just feel confused. When that happens, I become quiet and I focus my attention on my heart area.

My mind often tries to pull me back up, but I gently re-focus on my heart.

I ask my heart: What is important right now? And I wait. I don’t always get an answer, but I try to listen every day.

I’ve noticed that whenever I’m stressed, it’s not because life is stressful; it’s because I’m entertaining stressful thoughts.

Becoming quiet and reconnecting to my heart helps, especially when I don’t know what to do.


2. Explore through writing.

Something else that I’ve found immensely useful is writing.

I don’t use prompts. I don’t have a structure. I open up a notebook and start writing what’s on my mind.

I clear my mind by dumping it all on paper. This seems to give me better access to my heart. So I begin by writing what’s on my mind, and I end up writing what’s in my heart.

Some call this journaling. Some call it freewriting. Julia Cameron calls it writing your “Morning Pages.”

The label isn’t important. What’s important is the result.

After writing for ten to fiften minutes, after getting all the craziness from my mind on paper, clarity emerges. I can feel my heart becoming warmer.

I sometimes ask my heart questions. I don’t always get great answers, but sometimes I do. Sometimes I feel like I’m connecting to an intelligence greater than me. And who knows, maybe I am?

The bottom line is that it works.


3. Take micro steps.

Once I reconnect to my heart, and clear some of the mind chatter, I begin asking myself: What tiny step can I take to reconnect with my desires?

You may want to rephrase this question. If you do, make sure you keep the focus on ridiculously tiny steps.

Sometimes the tiny step is to lie down. Relax and recharge. Stop trying to figure everything out. Stop stressing about the imagined future.

Micro steps are not only useful in reconnecting with your desires. I use them in everything I do.

The reason they work so well is that they bring you back to the present moment. Micro steps help you focus on what you can do with what you have.

You can’t predict the future. You can’t control outcomes. But you can do the best you can, right here, right now. When this realization sinks in, you relax and life becomes brighter.


The biggest mistake I make over and over again, even though I know all this, is getting stuck in my own thinking.

I notice my thinking trying to figure it all out. But all my thoughts are assumptions about life. They aren’t reality. Just thoughts.

This doesn’t mean we should condemn thoughts. It means we need to take our thoughts less seriously.

Because what if you let go of the story that you didn’t know what you want? You would simply enjoy what’s right here, right now. And if you felt drawn to do something, you’d do it.

When I watch my son play, he doesn’t know what he wants. He’s completely in the present moment, enjoying life. He’s almost three years old as I write this, yet he’s showing me how to live and enjoy life.

You see, I’ve noticed that I tend to take life too seriously. I take my thoughts, my fears, and my future seriously.

Yet what I’ve realized is that I’m always experiencing my life through my thoughts. I don’t feel the outside world. I feel my thoughts.

So when I help people find and follow their passion, even when they don’t know what they want, I discover that the spark never went out. It simply got obscured by their thinking.

I’m not going to tell you to make a radical change in your life. I’m going to tell you to take the tiniest step, and to bring your attention back into this very moment.

You only need to notice a tiny thing you enjoy doing, and follow it. This isn’t about picking the right thing.

Right now, it’s about simply learning to follow your interests, and reconnecting to your heart and joy.

Thinking man image via Shutterstock



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About Henri Junttila

Henri writes at Wake Up Cloud, where you can get his free course: 7 Steps to Building a Lifestyle Business Around Your Passion. He's also the author of Find Your Passion: 25 Questions You Must Ask Yourself and Follow Your Heart: 21 Days to a Happier, More Fulfilling Life.



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Of this good grace of a Llama gift.. my fine thanks! :)
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Thank you, and you're most welcome. :)
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Hi, Steven. I thought I'd show this to you: fav.me/d83ig9k Tell me what you think of it via commenting on it! :)
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Thank you for the lama and holy crap your art is good like wow and also I look up to you now (unless you're shorter than me which is fine) but like wow your amazing
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